Who I am

Updated 4/6/2018…

Much like my life, I have just deleted everything I had previously written about myself and started over. Select All>Delete. New beginning.

I am a mother. Hmmmm…

I am a single mother. Almost…

I am a grateful single mother.

I lead an amazing life. It is busy, and full, and crazy in the best possible way. There is so much I am thankful for in my life.

And yet I want more. Scratch that. I want MUCH more.

I am learning that there really are endless possibilities. I have been so limited in my thinking, in what I thought was possible, that I failed to make the choices that would lead me to the life I truly deserve.

I thought that there was one “right” path, one way to be “successful.” I thought if I learned the formula I could achieve my goals. But what I’ve learned is that by doing this I limited myself to only the goals I could imagine. I limited myself to what I believed was possible. Because of this I was missing opportunities to choose the direction that I now feel I was meant to take.

I have always, from the time I was a little girl, wanted to write. I have always wanted to be an author. And yet, I let life push me around. I dabbled in writing here and there, but it was never as important as washing the dishes and folding the laundry. I put what I wanted to be doing behind what I felt needed to be done.

I let my lack of self-worth keep my dreams hidden. What my kids needed was more important. Making my friends happy mattered more. My job came first, well…third…but definitely ahead of me. Cooking, cleaning, mowing the lawn, painting the house…it all came ahead of the things that would truly make me happy.

I let fear and self-doubt control me. I worried about what people would think, if I would be good enough. “What if I fail?” “What if I waste all this time and nothing comes of it?”

In March of 2018 I decided to commit myself to writing, to make it my first priority instead of my last. And I learned that when you truly commit yourself you can achieve great things.

When I began writing here I had a plan, a designed purpose, something I wanted to achieve. But I struggled finding my voice. The words didn’t flow. It didn’t feel right. Then I started participating with the word prompt of the day and something beautiful happened. I stopped writing what I thought I was supposed to write and instead started writing what I was feeling.

And it was AWESOME.

The words just flowed. The more posts I wrote the easier it was for me to just let go of my plan and follow my heart. Sometimes I go back and reread what I’ve written and I’m simply amazed that these words came from me.

I’ve fallen in love with writing, and the WordPress community. I love connecting with people who read what I’ve written and I love reading what others have posted. This is an unbelievable journey and I’m grateful you’re joining me. Who knows where this may lead?

My name is Dianna (Dee) Kelly. It’s nice to meet you.

33 thoughts on “Who I am”

  1. You’ve clearly been through a lot, but you seem strong and I know you’ll get through it. I have a similar personality type… I avoid confrontation and compromise much too much. But the fact that you did end it is inspiring, and a great example to your girls. I also just want to say that I love the design of your site and I look forward to following your journey, celebration the wins and sympathising with the losses.
    Keep up the good work!

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  2. It’s hard for me to say I know how you feel, because I’ve never been through it. From our posts and comments back and forth I’ve learned that you are one tough lady and a very talented listener. It’s an honor to know you and be your friend. I won’t ask, but there’s an old song by Don & Juan called “What’s Your Name?” If it’s a secret, that’s ok ☺❤

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    1. It’s not a secret. Everything associated with the blog uses the nickname Dee. My full name is Dianna. The only reason I have not made it more public was to keep my kids from googling me and stumbling on things I wasn’t read for them to know. It allows me some freedom to say things without censoring them. Most of what I say is perfectly fine for them to read but I refuse to taint them against their father…He has full control over that. I’m grateful you consider me a friend. ❤️

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  3. A wonderful post! Thank you so much for opening up and sharing! Your story raises so many questions that I’m wanting to know why and how this happens, to you and so many others – for research and understanding.

    You might be interested in my post “She Hopes For More”.
    Chuck
    xoxo

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      1. Love your new about statement!!! So inspirational!! I’m so happy that you are now following your bliss!! It does change you and for the better. It makes your heart happy!
        You might want to tape this quote to your bathroom mirror – “What have I done today, to make my dreams come true!” This will become a relentless motivation for you!! For the good!

        Oh, by the way, My Dear! Did you ever get a chance to read my post – “She Hopes For More”? I would really love to hear your feelings about it? – Please?
        xoxo

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      2. “What have I done today, to make my dreams come true!” …. Until my book is published in working on little else than following my dreams (this is the benefit of an aggressive timeline)…But this will be helpful after the deadline is past to remind me not to sit back, keep pushing forward. It’s the only way…

        I thought I’d read it and commented but maybe that was a different one. Can you send me the link to that post? I’ll be happy to read it!

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      1. No worries. I work in IT…But sometimes you need someone else to point out what’s wrong. When I visit my posts WordPress knows it’s me so I don’t see reblog on any of them. I think this one should be fixed…🤞 I appreciate your help!

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