What If My Writing is Just a Futile Routine?

Why do I write? What is the point?

A month ago I was finishing the final draft of my book. I was euphoric. I had a clear vision and a single-minded focus. I had never felt better, never been more certain of my path. I was inspired in a way I had never before experienced. I had a clear goal and I was going to achieve it.

For months I had pushed everything but writing aside. Each blog post aligned with my message because I thought of little else. Each word prompt inspired heartfelt writing that flowed without effort. I was insanely grateful for every single thing in my life; appreciating things that should have caused frustration. I was fearless; nothing scared me.

My life was at an all-time high. I had a purpose. I wanted to infect others with the same feeling I had as I was writing.

Since my book was published I have had to get back to β€œnormal” life. I had to refocus on work, household chores, errands, exercising, and all the mundane tasks I shoved to the side while working on my project. As time goes on I feel my sense of purpose slipping away. I have other projects I want to work on but have started none of them.

I am consumed by the things that have to get done, instead of the things I want to do. Daily life is filled to the brim and there is no time to work toward my goals. My attention is diverted by each shiny object I pass; my time taken up by kittens, kids, coworkers, and friends.

I am feeling overwhelmed without adding a new project to my list, yet I know it is the next project that will bring back that sense of purpose.

So why do I write? Why do I continue to post each day when sometimes it feels futile?

I write because I’m a writer. I write because my writing has connected me with people in a way I never expected. I write because I know my writing has made a significant difference in the lives of at least 2 people, possibly more. I write because it allows me to express thoughts and feelings I might otherwise keep to myself. I write because it means something to me. I write because it matters.

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This post is in response to the daily writing prompt Infect

37 thoughts on “What If My Writing is Just a Futile Routine?”

  1. I try and write because I am enjoying it, always wanted to do it, figured I did not have the skills nor the nohow. Now, I got used to it, hopefully doing better at it, and I really enjoy it. Of course, it is only me, myself, and I to deal with, so I can. You said it well and it was an enjoyable read. I wrote today “Why tomorrow and not today” a short time ago. It kinda goes along with your flow. Thank you.

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  2. I am also consumed by the things that have to be done right now as well and my writing has suffered. Your post is very motivational. I need to get back to the grind – if only for the minutes I can get here and there. Because it does matter!

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    1. ❀️😁 thank you! I’ll tally my count to 3 then. πŸ˜‰ this post was inspired by a conversation I had with a friend this morning whose comment mirrored doubts I’ve felt…This was my response. 😊

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  3. Good for you Dee. Congratulations on your book, you’re killing it! You’re not just surviving, you’re definitely thriving!

    Seems to me that you’re not just writing because you’re inspired, but because you also want to truly inspire. Not just to infect other, but to have an infectious heart to others; you’re on your way! Keep connecting, keep expecting, keep sharing; express your thoughts, and your heart! Keep writing, because it truly does matter; to you!

    #BeFearless!

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    1. “to have an infectious heart to others”….yes this is true! For me the value truly is in the connections I make….The interactions when I truly touch the heart of someone else. 😊 thanks for the pep talk!

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      1. This makes so much more sense. lol. Your link didn’t work so I went searching and looked found the one you posted 5/12/18…which is a beautiful post. But the one from 2017 it’s like you wrote what I was thinking. Thank you Walt!

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