Much like my life, I have just deleted everything I had previously written about myself and started over. Select All>Delete. New beginning.
I am a mother. Hmmmm…
I am a single mother. Almost…
I am a grateful single mother.
I lead an amazing life. It is busy, and full, and crazy in the best possible way. There is so much I am thankful for in my life.
And yet I want more. Scratch that. I want MUCH more.
I am learning that there really are endless possibilities. I have been so limited in my thinking, in what I thought was possible, that I failed to make the choices that would lead me to the life I truly deserve.
I thought that there was one “right” path, one way to be “successful.” I thought if I learned the formula I could achieve my goals. But what I’ve learned is that by doing this I limited myself to only the goals I could imagine. I limited myself to what I believed was possible. Because of this I was missing opportunities to choose the direction that I now feel I was meant to take.
I have always, from the time I was a little girl, wanted to write. I have always wanted to be an author. And yet, I let life push me around. I dabbled in writing here and there, but it was never as important as washing the dishes and folding the laundry. I put what I wanted to be doing behind what I felt needed to be done.
I let my lack of self-worth keep my dreams hidden. What my kids needed was more important. Making my friends happy mattered more. My job came first, well…third…but definitely ahead of me. Cooking, cleaning, mowing the lawn, painting the house…it all came ahead of the things that would truly make me happy.
I let fear and self-doubt control me. I worried about what people would think, if I would be good enough. “What if I fail?” “What if I waste all this time and nothing comes of it?”
In March of 2018 I decided to commit myself to writing, to make it my first priority instead of my last. And I learned that when you truly commit yourself you can achieve great things.
When I began writing here I had a plan, a designed purpose, something I wanted to achieve. But I struggled finding my voice. The words didn’t flow. It didn’t feel right. Then I started participating with the word prompt of the day and something beautiful happened. I stopped writing what I thought I was supposed to write and instead started writing what I was feeling.
And it was AWESOME.
The words just flowed. The more posts I wrote the easier it was for me to just let go of my plan and follow my heart. Sometimes I go back and reread what I’ve written and I’m simply amazed that these words came from me.
I’ve fallen in love with writing, and the WordPress community. I love connecting with people who read what I’ve written and I love reading what others have posted. This is an unbelievable journey and I’m grateful you’re joining me. Who knows where this may lead?
My name is Dianna (Dee) Kelly. It’s nice to meet you.