No Need to Fret, But I Still Worry…

I tell myself there’s no need to fret; I don’t have to worry. It will all work out for the best. I believe in myself. I am strong. I am confident. I am brave.

And then something happens that threatens my resolve, causes me to doubt.

This morning I found out that my ex and his wife learned that I was publishing a book and writing a blog. It was only a matter of time. It’s not a secret; it can’t be. But I know they’re going to read it, or rather their stepmother will read it and report back to my ex. I’m certain they want to know what I might be writing about them. Little do they know that they factor so little in my life these days that I rarely mention them at all.

Yet this fills me with fear that is not proportional to the circumstances. It tempts me to censor what I write and that is frustrating me. I want this blog to be a place where I am free to write how I feel. I don’t want to worry about whether they will find out and try to use something I write against me.

I love what I am creating here. I honestly do. I’m proud of what I’m putting out there, both on this blog and in my book. I don’t want to let my fear of how he might react lesson that in any way.

For a number of reasons, partly in anticipation of this exact situation, and partly for other reasons, I had already registered a separate domain that I will be using for writing related to my book and any future publications, because yes, I want to do this again, and again. The new domain currently points to this blog, but I need to change that; and I need to do that before the book is published.

Selfishly perhaps, I want to keep this blog for me. I want to have this space to be an unfiltered reflection of me. So I believe this is for the best, although it’s not really what I want to do. It’s the only way I can stop the worry that has taken hold…

Please let me know your thoughts, I’d like to know.

This post is in response to the daily writing prompt Fret

30 thoughts on “No Need to Fret, But I Still Worry…”

    1. Thank you for that. This is definitely something I need to hear today πŸ˜‰πŸ˜ It isn’t going anywhere…And I don’t want to change what/how I post. So this is what makes me feel a second blog will be necessary….A public face of sorts. I really appreciate your feedback!

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  1. Dee we would miss you so much if you left us. We love your writing and the genuine personality that you put into it. I wish you all the best with your new blog, and yet still look forward to continued postings here. πŸ™‚

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  2. Of course you should keep this blog. Do not fret over things that you cannot control. And it does no good anyways. We both know this. Regardless of how your ex and the wife react, the only thing that you are able to control is your reactions to them. You do not write about them in any way that you should be concerned about beyond a brief mention. You are so brave and strong. And you have come so far. They are really a small blip in the orbit of your life. Please don’t worry. πŸ™‚

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    1. Thank you! Your support means so much! I am definitely keeping this blog…My thought is to create a different one that would be where I would point people from the book.. still the same kind of information but perhaps slightly less personal. And keep this one about me. πŸ˜‰

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  3. You may want to create a website for your book. You can connect this Blog to the site. It’s normal to fret, but dig your heels in honey! This is yours! Try and stay away from the drama, and hold your focus. Look straight ahead…not in the review mirror. We believe in you! xx

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    1. Thanks! I need the encouragement. Old habits sometimes die hard and my ex can cause fear in me pretty easily. But I have a plan and am moving forward. Staying away from the drama is absolutely a priority! I appreciate the feedback!

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  4. Just keep doing what you are doing and being who you are. You are a writer and nobody can take that away from you!! Remember this… You hold the power of the pen. If they start bothering you, all is us will help you. Stay strong, Hugs πŸ™‚β€οΈ

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  5. You are not going anywhere Dee. This is you. You knew one day it would be known that you are writing this blog, so just chill. What you have created here cannot be replicated elsewhere.
    Let’s conquer the universe together girl.
    Lots of love and hugs.πŸ’•

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    1. ❀️ thank you! This blog will definitely continue. But I am working on a less personal one more closely tied to what I discuss in the book. That may go nowhere lol…Since this feels more sincere. But I’m testing it out. ❀️ Either way….The universe is ours!!!

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