As I’ve gone through my journey of recovering from my past and self-discovery I’ve come to realize one thing more than anything else. The person who has betrayed me more than anyone I’ve ever come in contact with is….me.
I have been betrayed by my low self-esteem; missing every opportunity because I felt I wasn’t good enough, not deserving enough.
I have been betrayed by my lack of self-worth; feeling unworthy of love, real love by someone who values me as I am.
I have been betrayed by my poor self-confidence; allowing fear to dominate my decisions, holding me back from accomplishing all I am capable of.
I have been betrayed by limiting beliefs; permitting thoughts of “I can’t” or “if only” to obliterate all hope for the future.
I have been betrayed by misguided thoughts; blaming others and in blaming handing over control of my happiness, my right to choose, my life.
I have been betrayed by my absence of self-love; shaming myself as others have shamed me, ridiculing myself, punishing myself for all that I am not.
I will be betrayed no more. I will seize the opportunities presented to me. I will seek only true love, in all my relationships. I will persevere in the face of fear. Instead of “I can’t” I will say “I will,” and then I will follow through. I will hold myself accountable and in doing so I will be the only one responsible for my happiness. I will love myself and appreciate all that is unique in me.
This is who I am, right now, in this moment.
This post is in response to the daily writing prompt Betrayed