I Will be Betrayed No More!

As I’ve gone through my journey of recovering from my past and self-discovery I’ve come to realize one thing more than anything else.  The person who has betrayed me more than anyone I’ve ever come in contact with is….me.

I have been betrayed by my low self-esteem; missing every opportunity because I felt I wasn’t good enough, not deserving enough.

I have been betrayed by my lack of self-worth; feeling unworthy of love, real love by someone who values me as I am.

I have been betrayed by my poor self-confidence; allowing fear to dominate my decisions, holding me back from accomplishing all I am capable of.

I have been betrayed by limiting beliefs; permitting thoughts of “I can’t” or “if only” to obliterate all hope for the future.

I have been betrayed by misguided thoughts; blaming others and in blaming handing over control of my happiness, my right to choose, my life.

I have been betrayed by my absence of self-love; shaming myself as others have shamed me, ridiculing myself, punishing myself for all that I am not.

I will be betrayed no more.  I will seize the opportunities presented to me.  I will seek only true love, in all my relationships.  I will persevere in the face of fear.  Instead of “I can’t” I will say “I will,” and then I will follow through.  I will hold myself accountable and in doing so I will be the only one responsible for my happiness.  I will love myself and appreciate all that is unique in me.

This is who I am, right now, in this moment.

This post is in response to the daily writing prompt Betrayed

24 thoughts on “I Will be Betrayed No More!”

  1. I’ve just come to realise that you may well be the only one I read who writes like this – the personal I don’t usually find I want to read – yet there is a straightforwardness to you – and strength too – as a writer and a person that comes through – and that’s compelling – all the best. Eric.

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    1. Thank you! I’m grateful you’re reading what I have to say. I feel like I’m finding my voice. Earlier posts were more forced. I think I was trying to fit some sort of mold and now I’m more comfortable just being me. I’m fortunate to get to know you Eric!

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  2. It felt like I was reading my own personal diary, really. Talking about self esteem and self confidence in times of distress is easy, but not so much when it comes to implementation. But as you put it, I guess the moment you start to love yourself, hold yourself accountable for your actions and don’t stop improving- things might start to change for the better. Thank you so much for this post. It’s filled with so much strength and optimism👍💕

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  3. Reblogged this on A Slapdash Talk and commented:
    Today seems to be turning out really well. Enjoyed the hailstorm in the evening and now such good posts on wordpress. But, I really need to stop dodging my studies, so off I go!
    But before that I am reblogging an awesome post by Grateful Single Mom. You can check out her amazing blog for more such posts.
    Till then farewell!

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  4. Very well done. What a relatable topic also. I’m a mom myself, and oftentimes I find myself feeling these ways. I’ve often wondered if it’s because as moms we go through so much change. (I.e weight change, body change, emotional changes, psychological changes, hormonal changes, etc.) that it impacts our judgment of ourselves. Your post was inspiring. Not only does it say without saying that these are not exclusive experiences but you also encouraged me to think about these same struggles differently. Oops. Nice to meet you Mel here. My pals call me RareBear. Nice to meet you☺️🌹

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    1. Hi Mel! I appreciate your message! I’m glad it spoke to you. I started this blog to be able to connect with people who have gone or are going through the things I’ve dealt with. It’s nice to meet you!

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