Being a single mother has filled me with questions; questions about myself, my life, parenting and so much more. I wonder who I am, if not a wife and mother. I wonder what I really want out of life, and how I’m going to get there alone. I wonder how I can not only help my kids cope with divorce but learn and grow through our experiences.
Being a single mom of two young girls has been the scariest thing I’ve ever attempted. Managing the house, fixing problems as they come up, living with only one income and handling everything alone was overwhelming at first. Add to that the demands of two children – cooking meals, homework, reading stories at bedtime, packing lunches, extra-curricular activities, birthday parties, school events – and I felt like a juggler standing on one hand trying to keep the balls in the air with just my feet!
Sometimes I wonder how I made it through those early days, but it has also been a time of the most amazing growth I have ever experienced. I never could have become the wonderful person I am now if I’d stayed in that toxic relationship. I have developed a sense of self-worth I never knew was missing. I have achieved things I didn’t know I could accomplish alone. I have learned that I really can juggle with just my feet while standing on my hand, and I have developed friendships with people who will catch the balls that I might otherwise drop.
My girls never would have grown into the strong, confident leaders they are becoming. Watching them today I feel a different sense of wonder. It’s the feeling you get when watching the most beautiful sunset. They’re not perfect (none of us is) but they are remarkable and often surprise me with how grown up they are.
Knowing how far we’ve come, the struggles we’ve been through, I feel a sense of wonder at how much control we really do have over our lives. The world is ours!
It’s amazing the worlds of bravery which are discovered during times of difficulty. We learn about our own inner fortitude.
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I salute your bravery and your constant dedication towards your daughters. No wonder they are turning our to be strong and confident, children always look up to their parents.
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Thank you! I haven’t always been the person I want them to be but I have definitely improved!
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Amazing post. I hope to be this strong once my son is born.
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Even though his father is involved, we aren’t together.
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I’m sure you will do great! Keep supportive positive people in your life and only worry about what truly matters! 🙂
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It seems hard, but through faith, my children and I survived my parenting. Thank God. You will, too.
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